i wouldnt say i have had d most intrestin experiences or felt the most pain but i sure v seen quite a few tins
relationships with humans is a difficult job to keep,infact its a job witout a guaranty of full salary payment... i v had quite a few of them,if nt more dan i shuld. a minister once told me that some of d friends we humans keep are lik extra luggages on a plane. be it a female or male friend,we all luk forward to sumtin frm them... we expect a certain amount to things from this relationshp... dont get me rong,i cant say i v been d best of friend to my pals... infact sometimes i forget to call or even send a txt(which by d way is lik my best way of kipin intouch) but it doesnt mean i dunt luv dem... sumtimes becos i v nt kept intouch wit dem for a lng time,i get scared of callin or takin deir calls for fear of rejection or dem being mad at me... procastination is lik a bad egg that gives out d ugliest stench... n d more u hold on to it d uglier d stench becos... i am nt d holiest of holys neither am i perfect... i am guilt of letting some of my friends down,i v hurt,cursed,bin mad at,betrayed some of dem n dunt even deserve to b called a friend... sometimes we psychologicaly hurt,emotionaly abuse sum of friends by words or actions n just dunt care abt deir feelns... but in all i v also learnt that just a few words culd change alot btwn two pple... a lil please here n dere,a simple am sori if it hurt u,forgive me...all these magic words could do us awole lot of gud.... i tuk out time to stay away frm my friends n b alone n blive me i v neva felt as lonely as i felt in dose weeks... to all my friends both the once i met in my innocent age,childhood n dose i just met....hear dis,i may fault,v flaws,hurt u,make u cry,betray u,stab u at d back or make mistakes but datd becos i was programmed to b dis way n nt b perfect but it doesnt mean u dunt v dat special place in my heart...knw dat each time i scroll thru my fone or fb page n c ur name,dat dere is a lil smile...if nt giggle on dis face of mine becos i v u for a reason.... and for dose i hurt,i did it nt knowin d havoc i was gonna cause u or our friendship...for dose i let down in d past,am only human...n its expected dat i derail...am truly sori if i v eva hurt u in d past...and for those i just met,am nt perfect,i may default sumhw,sumday but it doesnt mean i dunt love u still.....i love u all n wish we culd all go back in time and start afresh..
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